Pretending to be Patient

I may seem patient on the outside, but I am full of anxiety, excitement, and anticipation as I wait for my new prosthetic leg.  It has been a long summer, knitting has distracted me for the most part, but always there  are nagging emotions just waiting to explode.  In less than a week, I get my test socket.  School has started life is falling into a routine and I wait.  One more week and I can take normal steps, probably just a few as my stump toughens up.  I want to watch my boys run cross-country, walking from checkpoint to checkpoint cheering them on rather than sitting in a wheelchair or riding a scooter.  I hate being dependent on others and actually look forward to cleaning my house.  But I can’t yet, soon.  I wait and knit.  I am finishing some projects, things I lined up before surgery to give me purpose through the recovery process.  Socks, pillows, washcloths and hanging towels have been most of my projects.  Now if only the anticipation didn’t weigh so heavy on me, I might enjoy them.  For now, they are just a distraction as I pretend to be patient.

Casting my leg so my prosthetic can be made, less than a week until my test socket is finished. 
  

Nerves

I am getting anxious.  My surgery is scheduled, in less than six weeks, I will be a right-below-the-knee amputee.  So much to do and all I can do is sit and knit at the moment.  I have most of my foot amputated at the moment and my stump is acting up.  I’m trying to avoid things that aggravate it but the weather is beautiful and being sedate is awful.  As I shout orders from my recliner, I am going to work on the dishcloths and hanging towels.  I like to have a stash of knits to give to people who stop by with meals or help us during my recovery from surgery.   Our to-do list seems long and I am realizing that priorities may need to shift as I cross things off our list or just drop some things from the list. So with my ice pack on my stump I will get back to my towel.  

  

My favorite summer washcloth pattern

Three Easy Washcloths
The hanging towel pattern

Hanging Towel